I just ran

Another rubbish night.  

Thought I was on to a winner when he managed a 4hr 15 min stretch from 9:15pm - 1:30am but then it was downhill all the way.  My son has only had 10 hrs 15 mins sleep in the last 24 hours.  Babies his age should be getting about 14 hours and babies a bit older should be getting 12 hours.  He is, without a doubt, falling short.

So today has been a right off.  A nothing day with a bid to getting some naps without getting too many so that it doesn't affect his sleep tonight.

A battle.

So tonight I just ran.  I ran and it felt different.  I needed to feel something else other than internal conflict.  And I did.  I felt my lungs expanding, the blood pumping through my legs, the cold rush of air against my cheeks.  And when I stopped, I felt the sharp coolness of being out of breath, the stretch of fibres in my body, which had not been stretched for a long time.  It felt good.

I re-entered my house with rosy cheeks and a new mindset.